Saturday, August 05, 2017

Cleaning Out the Closet

I've been holding on to pre-baby clothes (from the thinnest period of my life) for five years. Five. Freaking. Years.
At first, I was hopeful to be back in them by the time my oldest was a year old. Then I was pregnant with my second...and now he's almost three and I'm at the heaviest weight I've ever been. 
I'm working on that. But it's tough feeding myself well and squeezing in exercise with two little ones who require so much attention and love and care--all of which I want to heap on them every available minute. So getting my body healthy and strong again is a process and I'm trying to be positive about it. 
Still, every time I opened my closet (or even thought about it because I knew the clothes were in there) I felt miserable. I felt angry and upset with myself. I felt sad that I'm not able to wear those clothes, because I really loved some of them.
For some reason, though, today I decided it was time to change that. I suddenly felt like it was time to let those clothes go.
So with my boys' help, I pulled out every last piece of "skinny" clothing and packed it into a box for Goodwill or set it aside to sell. It was a little like a funeral, saying goodbye to all those dresses and shirts I loved. But it was also cathartic. It was like I was releasing all the negative feelings I had been holding in. 
I feel like I can finally move forward instead of dwelling in the past. And that feels pretty amazing.


MamaDuck said...

Kudos to you on your successful attack on your closet. We all experience that feeling at some point. Having your boys and husband beside you to support you also helps you in feeling confident in who you are and moving forward. Congrats again. Nice to read real stories.

Ami said...

Thanks for the comment and for reading, MamaDuck!

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