I'm feeling anxious today and, while this might be related to hormonal fluctuations, it's very likely due to all the questions that keep running through my head. I was awake much of the night, tossing and turning, and every time I woke up there were more questions forming a pile on the pillow beside my head.
A few examples:
- Is the economy really as bad as the "analysts" keep saying it is?
- Are we going to experience a depression to rival the Great Depression, as one of those analysts implied will occur if things don't improve drastically, and soon?
- What should I do with my money?
- Is it safe to spend some of my savings on more windows and a door?
- Can I afford to buy a dining table?
- What color should I paint my dining room?
- When am I going to find time to refinish the kitchen cabinets?
- And paint the dining room?
- Should I paint the kitchen before or after I paint the dining room?
- How can I worry about paint when men are at war, people are starving and a hurricane just destroyed homes and lives?
- Can we fix the mess we've made of our country?
- Don't people care about one another anymore?
- Should I move back to my hometown?
- Will I ever move anywhere again?
- Should I get another cat or is one cat more than enough?
- Am I a good cat-mommy?
- Should I have blanched all those green beans I've been freezing?
- Will they be ruined when I try to eat them in January?
- My friends and family love me, no matter what.
- I care about people.
- I love love.
- I have a home and a job that pays the bills.
- My cat meets me at the door everyday and purrs when she's near me.
- Paint isn't permanent.
- Life is precious and I can choose to be present for it all.
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"Life is precious and I can choose to be present for it all."
Love that quote. It is hard, especially for writers, I think, to turn off their heads at night. Sometimes if you get a rosary or a string of worry beads or some other physical mechanism to chant or say prayers/count blessings on, it relieves that logical side of your brain, allowing sleep to creep in. Try it.
Thanks for the advice, Angie. I tried it last night and I slept very well. We'll see if that holds true for the rest of the week. :)
I have a favor to ask you and others in Girldom. Can we go to dinner soon, and can you and everyone else who goes pick 5 of these types of questions up off of there pillows and bring them to the table? I could use some soul searching time. PS I worry if I am a good Chinchilla mommy, too.
You've got the right attitude - hole on to what you know and take comfort from it. I have to give my worries to God a lot of the time otherwise it is just too overwhelming for me.
RE: the economy - I was watching the news last night and they had economic analysts talking about the national debt. It was not good news - they were saying we will actually RUN OUT of money. I was wondering where in the heck I could stash my dough because I'm not sure that banks will be safe in the next 20 years!
That should have said "hold" on, not "hole" on. Sheesh.
Louise - I'm working on it. We definitely need more girl time! :)
Melissa - No wonder so many people are in debt up to their ears. Look at what a great example our government has been.
This sounds like the inside of my head. I'm sorry to hear you've had so much on your mind. I think my favorite (if I'm allowed to have a favorite) worry on your list is whether or not you are a "good cat mommy." I feel the same way about my dog. . . oh, and wondering whether with this economy- will I ever move out of the garden apartment?
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